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Culture November 7, 2022
Nobody told me it would feel like this. Nobody told me how to do it.
What is most troubling?
What is most troubling is how
Nobody told me
That sometimes, There’s Nothing to tell when, Put simply,
They do not carry the appropriate fit.
Too big
Too small
Too narrow
Too wide
Too short
Too long
Too tight around the sides
Too this
Too that
Too skinny
Too fat
Too thick
Too thin
Too much heaven
Not enough sin
Too slow
Too quick
Not healthy
Are you sick?
Too old
Too new
Oh how I wish,
And worry
That this road, This flurry – Is much more
Than going to the store
And buying, Or even just trying, A good Pair of shoes
Too little
Too much
Too much Gas
Not enough clutch
Too jealous
Too petty
Too here
Too there
Too “I want to go steady,”
but,
“I don’t know what to wear…”
Too cold
Too hot
Too with me when I am winning,
And gone when I am not
Too excited
Too sad
Too “Wish I never had”
Why hadn’t Anyone warned me
That love could feel like this?
Like a Mirage –
Most infuriatingly,
Why does Everyone ignore the fact,
The honest and gut-wrenching Truth,
That every once in a while,
In order to win
In order to soothe
The ache inside ourselves…..
…We must decide to Quit. Especially,
Most pressingly,
When one does not have the right fit!
Anyone on Earth could have shouted,
Or screamed,
Or hollered,
“THERE’S NOTHING TO TELL”
They should have yelled it –
“Trust yourself,”
They should have said
I should have listened
Instead I glistened
Under the sun
With you
Even when I knew it to be true –
That we
Could not be
The Right fit
There’s nothing You can do,
Nothing to say more,
Nor pray for –
Never wait around all day for
Never let left become right
Never paint black to be white
All the time,
Wondering,
Is this too tight?
It is.
Always choose vision oversight.
So,
After Nobody showed me
That being loved
Is not the same as Loving,
And,
After Everyone agreed
That most of the time,
Loving,
Like trying on clothes….
….is like falling into a pit, I concluded
That for the rest of Time
There will hardly ever
(Some may say Never)
Be Anything to tell
About that one Time –
I happened to find
To stumble,
To mumble,
And rumble,
Perhaps fumble,
And crumble
To eventually become humbled
By You –
At the Right Time
Love,
The Wrong Fit
About Stories Matter: Stories Matter is a mentoring program founded by writer Leslie Zemeckis, and co-sponsored by the SBIFF and ENTITY Magazine, for young female writers, nurturing and inspiring the next generation of writers to tell their stories. A weekly intensive where published female authors give their time to encourage and share their writing process. These are the best of the bunch, some remain works-in-progress, and some will (hopefully) take these stories and turn them into longer pieces.